To dance is to live...

“One day I'll fly away

Leave all this to yesterday

Why live life from dream to dream

And dread the day when dreaming ends”

I have to go… I really do... I need to chase my dream and make it come true. I can’t just sit here and watch it drift away by procrastination just like foot prints washed away by the ocean…
I want to learn more about life and I won’t be able to do that within these walls… I need to break loose and be free… Go out there and get out of my comfort zone. I need to face my fear of rejection, my fear of trying out new things. This is the only way to achieve my goal.

"Hurry up and wait

So close, but so far away

Everything that you've always dreamed of

Close enough for you to taste

But you just can't touch

You wanna show the world, but no one knows your name yet

Wonder when and where and how you're gonna make it

You know you can if you get the chance

In your face as the door keeps slamming

Now you're feeling more and more frustrated

And you're getting all kind of impatient waiting…”

How will I start? Where do I start? It’s like walking in a pitch black path.
I have no idea how to make this major move or if I even have to do it.
My mind says no but my heart says “GO AHEAD and JUST DO IT!”
I pray everyday to have a break from all of this…
To stop for awhile and look around…think of what to do
And how to begin this new journey headed for my dream and happiness...

Joker killed Heath Ledger

Heath Ledger. The hunky Aussie I fell in love with in A Knight’s Tale. The very guy who did the sweetest thing by being ridiculous in front of the whole school in 10 Things I Hate About You. The one guy that make bisexuals weak to their knees in Brokeback Mountain. Oh Heath… What happened art thou?

It is your love to the art of acting that killed you. It is your eagerness to make people see the character and not you. Why did you let Joker corrupt you? Why did you let your sincere smile be altered by that sarcastic, crooked smile? Your heartfelt chuckle by a sinister laugh. That charming face with a menacing look.

After 1 month of isolation you have succeeded to reveal Joker within you. . But in this process it seemed that Joker has taken over you…

And with this, the Hollywood buzz says you’re worthy of a Best Supporting Actor Nomination but I say you don’t deserve to be Supporting Actor. You are the Best Actor. And not only do you deserve this because you’re gone… But you will get this even if you’re with us. And if they fail to see these... They're nothing...

We miss you Heath…

Misterhubs' Lockjaw Girl

I'm addicted!

I'm obsessed!

I'm hooked to the warped, funny and pink blog that is Misterhubs.

Thanks to the ever so brilliant blog entries of Misterhubs. We have come to encounter a very disturbing yet unique lass who will forever bring tears of laughter into our eyes.

My all time favourite entry.

Meet Lockjaw Girl.

And because she never fails to bring not just smiles but a pandemonium of laughter into our stressful daily lives in the office. Here is our tribute to her. :D

Our first attempt.

gotta be more natural....

a bit exaggerated...

the more the merrier!

tooo scripted.. (damn! just ignore those awful thighs)

wwaaaaahhhh!!! :D

To misterhubs, thank you so much. You make our office hours more bearable. *hugs and kisses*

A Letter for God

Hi God. I’m here again. You’ll prolly know what I’m going to tell you…

I want to say sorry, for the bad things that I have done. I want to ask for your forgiveness even though I know that I’m not worthy of it. I want to ask for your mercy, for you to allow me to have more time in this world so I can change my ways. God please forgive me.

God I am so bored with my life. I’d gladly give it back to you if you’ll exchange a life over there with you. It will feel like I’ve won the 100+ Million Lotto Jackpot that I’ve been asking from you if that happens. And even more. Much much more… I’m sorry Lord… I know that everyday is a gift and everything that happens is never an accident and is not happening without a purpose. God… Help me understand what you want me to do. Help me God to venture the path that you want me to go… Change the desire that is in my heart if it’s not for me and replace it with what is your will.

I am just tired… I need some time for my self to think and to hear you…

I don’t know what to do anymore Father. Please help me.

WEEKEND IS LOVE!

YIPEEEE!!! Weekends na! I love love love love love WEEKENDS!! It’s like even when it’s Monday pa lang I’m already wishing na it’s Friday na PARE! So I don’t hafta see all the katutubos here in Makati! OMG!!!!

HAHAHAHA! I’m sorry just got bitten by the cofibean.blogspot.com bug. Reading his entries was really entertaining. Maiinis ka na mtatawa kasi.. I dunno... I guess you hafta read it for yourself. But I swear if a person like this exists he’ll prolly be dead right now. Nyahahaha. So anyways... It’s been a long while since I last wrote an entry for my blog.. Yeah yeah I know… Even if it seems that I’m not working on my desk, I’m still working people! *ROFL*

I’m just really happy that it’s FRIDAY today! I mean… Literally! I am happy. I mean… just like now… If one of my officemates would look at me, they’ll prolly think I need to go to a mental institution because I’m smiling for an unknown reason to them. NYAHAHAHAHAHA! I’m so happy! WEEKENDS! WEEKENDS!

Sana lagi nlng weekends noh? HAHAHA! Pwede ba un? So siguro dapat nlng akong mag-file ng vacation leave yung mga tipong 1 month? Pwede na ba un? HAHAHAHA
Lalo na nakakita ko ng super murang 2 days/3nights package to Boracay…. Hmmmmmnnnn…(day dreaming)

Ayan. After a few minutes… HAHAHA. Sarap nun… I would really love to experience Bora.. Unwind… for one month! Haha pwede ba un?

Boracay… I’m coming to Boracay…

Ok waking up… haha. I didn’t drink any coffee, so this is not caffeine high. I’m really wondering why I’m so perky. OH I KNOW!
Its because… WEEKENDS NA!!! YAY! YAY!

Just spreading the word and the joy brought by weekends!

ENJOY YOUR WEEKENDS! :)

PS: Who wants to join me watch the Cinemalaya 2008 full length entries sa CCP? Text nyo nlng ako! :)

Things that I have learned the hardway. PART 1

Love hurts. But its still a nice thing to experience. You can't have that fairy tale story that you've been dreaming of. But you can at least say to your self that there was a time in your life that you were a princess and you had a prince. And hey! The story has just begun that day will come when your Real Prince will rescue you from the depths of loneliness. Teehee! ANG CORNY!

Don't trust too easily. You'll never know if a person is cunning until something bad happens. Things can be pretty nasty when you trust that easily. Not just for material things but specially secrets. I experienced sharing a deep dark secret to a close friend of mine back from college and I ended up being informed that she told this secret to a classmate. Ooooh the rage. And you know what really ticked me off? The insincere apology. Argh. Hahaha. PPSOC? ring a bell? If you can make your self trust no one well good fer yeh! But i think that's not a nice picture to see either. hihi

Give the benefit of the Doubt. Not everything you hear is the truth. For example, a friend of yours said that someone you know said something bad about you. Though a friend told you about it, still give the benefit of the doubt to the other person. If you really want to clear things up ask that person. But if its like these people that I know who would definitely lie about it, don't bother and just be very cautious on sharing things with other people.

Backstabbers, they're everywhere. School, Office. People you think you know? Think again. They smile and chat with you incessantly, share everything and anything under the sun but once you turn your back? Only blubbers negative things about you. Just like them. Yeah. you know them don't you? Are you one of them? Well as my own version of the old saying goes. "Bato bato sa langit ang tamaan, eh di magalit! Pakialam ko!" hehe. Cause i don't give a shit if you think that it's you. You have put that on your self. And you know what? You're a bunch of sore losers. So please get a life and another thing not mine nor my friends'.

Be the bigger person. I got this from my Big brother. When you feel like you just want to kick the person on the face? be the bigger person and let it go. Let him/her be the immature. I felt like punching the hell out of these people earlier then I remembered this from my kuya so I thought they're just not worthy. They're not even worthy to be mentioned here. I'm the Big Man! ROFL

to be continued...

Urbandub awakens Psycho Jan

"Evidence"

Urbandub

Time has a way of healing, so they say

So why am I still left here cryin'

Caught in these ways of emotion as people stare

I find there's no real place for me to hide

Well I've been trying in vain

Was only fooling myself

With each passing day

The pain still stays the same

Caught you in the arms of another

I've been dying everyday since then

Caught you in the arms of another

I've found out about you

Caught you in the arms of another

I've been dying everyday since then

Caught you in the arms of another

I've found out about you

What more is it that you need

Right now really it's not me

With every minute that I get to you

And all the pictures that I took from you

Why wasn't it that enough?

What more is it that you need

Right now really it's not me

Despite everything I did for you

Excused me by surprise

The moment that I found out that we were ohhh...

Caught you in the arms of another

I've been dying everyday since then

Caught you in the arms of another

I've found out about you

Caught you in the arms of another

I've been dying everyday since then

Caught you in the arms of another

I've found out about you

When everything seems alright

You turn and break my heart

Denied us of our love

It kills me inside when you're in his arms

Wrapped around you now,
Well I've been trying in vain

Was only fooling myself

With each passing day

The pain still stays the same

Caught you in the arms of another

I've been dying everyday since then

Caught you in the arms of another

I've found out about you

Caught you in the arms of another

I've found out about you

Caught you in the arms of another

I've found out about you

Caught you in the arms of another

I've found out about you

Caught you in the arms of another

I've found out about you

Time has a way of healing, so they say

So why am I still left here

*****

I am a new fun of Urbandub! Or should I say a huge fan of their new single "Evidence" and the music video. Have you seen it? You should. It really has a great concept. You need to watch it first before reading my blog so you can really relate with me.

So here goes, actually the song says it all. "Caught you in the arms of another". People lend me your ears. Yes this is one of my Infidelity compositions. Har har har.

In this video the girl, played by Iza Calzado is being unfaithful (SHAME ON HER!) on her boyfriend, played by Urbandub lead singer, Gabo. The other guy was played by Ryan Eigenman. Basically, the two was caught flirting in a supermarket, which by the way is a very very cheap place to flirt. ARGH. anyhow Gabo's friends who was obviously played by his bandmates took a vid of the culprits. They eventually informed Gabo about it and there was Cutie Gabo in disbelief.

Here's my favourite part of the video. Gabo then fixed him self, wearing a black poloshirt topped with a black coat and a tool box in hand he went to Iza's house. Of course the bitch forgot to take the spare key under the mat so Gabo was able to get inside and witness her infidelity. With two open eyes, Ryan and Iza flabbergasted with the appearance of Gabo. BANG! Ryan's dead. BANG! Iza was down on her knees... Oh yes... Save the best for last. There she was, with a hole in her stomach.. crawling towards Gabo... Looks like asking for mercy... Gabo then caresses her face... And then reached for his tool box... Now holding a hammer... He bashed the hell out of Iza... Blood gushing out of her head... You can not see remorse in Gabo's face. I just love it.

So do you appreciate it too? If not then prolly you're not a psycho like me. *ROFL* Kidding aside, it just hit me. What if this is the way you get even to a person who cheated on you? Astig di ba? Anyways... I think my psycho persona has taken over me for a while there...

Lesson Learned: Flirt in a more private place. WAG SA SUPERMARKET! *LMAO*