Sickly Tiring...

Aaaargh... Here I am again... Starting a blog filled with my rants and whining about work... Looking down on memory lane, back on the days that my eagerness and perseverance for my job is on the utmost level I can't seem to unearth inside my now cob-web-filled head why I’m not like that anymore.

“Motivation gets you started but Habit keeps you going”

In some cases I do think that this works. But boy oh boy! If you do the same thing over and over again… For 8-9 hours a day, 5 days a week? Won’t you get sickly tired of it? Ulk!

I am… and I hope to get over it soon…

One of those days...

Yesterday about to go home from the office, I was riding the round trip train from Buendia. A sudden tinge of loneliness and sadness covered me. It came from nowhere. Or maybe it did. I missed him.


It's as if we didn't celebrate my birthday together. Being with him then, felt like it didn't happen at all. Maybe I was so intune with the game that I wasn't able to spend more time with him. My head was somehow clouded that I didn't notice how he was doing and if he was doing fine. I'm sorry sweety. It was my day but still I should've given us more time. I hope that you'll forgive me. I should've hugged you more and kissed you more. I should've thanked you more and looked at you more. I'm sorry sweety. I love you so much and I hope that you'll forgive my shortcomings. I know I should've showed you how much I appreciate you being there on my birthday and all of the gifts that you've given me. I loved it. everything. Millions of Thank you sweety.

I texted you and said that I was feeling down. What I didn't know was it's the feeling of guilt that what I wasn't able to do when we were together.

The time we spend together just flies by without me noticing it. I just let it fly by without me doing and saying the things that I should be doing/saying. I hope you'll forgive me. I sometimes take it for granted that we're together then suddenly it's time to go home. Then I realize after you go away that I wasn't able to say "Ingat" or say "I love you so much". I hope you'll forgive me.

Stay with me sweety amidst the imperfections in our relationship. I love you so much.

4th of May

4th of May 2008. My 23rd birthday... Damn I'm getting old. lol. but it's all good. I'm lovin' it. Another year has been added to my life here on earth... loads of memory to treasure, some not but still events that I have learned from. I'm just really thankful to God that he has never left me all through these years. He has always been there and I know he will always be. Trials and failures encountered, fallen in and out of love, friendships lost and found. Lots and lots of issues and events. But I'm still here writing this blog of my random thoughts for my 23rd birthday. I am truly blessed and I just pray to God that he will continually bless me and my loved ones. He will keep on protecting us and never leave us.

Oh my.... I'm getting too Godly am I? There's nothing wrong about that. We all should be. Oh no.. now I'm being righteous. I'm sorry about that.

Anyhow, going to a lighter note, how did I celebrate my birthday? I played Ultimate Frisbee. yeah I know. My friends asked me why would I spend my birthday getting oh sooo tired and oh sooooo burned under the sun? I just want to... and besides we were lacking the people for the team. Our first game was against UW, argh it was a close fight in the first half but too bad... we lost. Funny incident: My brother called for a double team foul against this guy. Rule stated that he must be 3 meters away from the person holding the disc before he runs towards him to block a pass or whatever [sorry not so knowledgeable of the rules ;)] but he contested and said that he was 3 meters away. He then begins to "measure" his "3 meters" by walking back to where he came from. Only to be seen that it doesn't measure up, but this guy wants to insist his "3 meters" but STILL to no avail. Argh. It really pisses me off that we always loose to the A-holes. argh.

Our 2nd game was against Toda 2. Now this team I really didn't think that we can beat. They are one of the teams that are well trained. But thank God we were victorious. YAY! A nice gift for my birthday. I ended giving my team mates a treat. Argh... I'm 3k+ poorer. But it was fine at least not only did I treat them for my birthday but it was for one victorious game as well. Oh And I also lurv the gift I had from my boyfriend. It was a Converse Chucks from the Punk collection. I lurve it! :D

So there you go another random blubbering-storytelling blog from yours truly.

Until next time! ;)

Introduction

I guess i'll start this blog by saying I'm sooo bored. Yep... very bored... that I decided to sign up to Blogspot.com and start blogging. But what will I write about? Well you'll mostly read about rants and raves and everyday encounters with the nice and the not so nice things that life has to offer. Oh well, that's life. I hafta do this. This would probably bring out those creative juices (if there's any) that I'm hiding within these body. lol. Damn. I'm really bored and these things I'm saying are mostly non-sense, so I guess you won't be staying that long to read it. But no hard feelings I understand, I myself wouldn't stick around to read about some random rants from a supasstah wanna-be. lol.

Oh that's a nice one. You just gave me a topic. You're probably thinking why it's "A Day in the Life of Supasstah"? well if you're not I'm gonna tell you anyways.

Supasstah - It's suppose to be Superstar, with a slang. I'm a wanna-be superstar. I want to be a celebrity. Yep. I wanna be famous. I can sing, dance and pretty much act as well. But unfortunately I'm not endowed with the beauty of the typical celebrity. Yeah know?... I'm not bitter or anything. I'm happy with what God has given me. :) By the way, I joined the audition for MTV SUPASTAH, for those of you who didn't hear about it, it was a singing contest. I was in a friend's house doing some school work back then when a good friend informed me about it and decided to give it a try. And whadya know? I passed the 1st screening but didn't got through the 2nd. Based with the people that got thru "Looks" was really a factor. But it was a great experience for me since I got to sing with Rada of Kulay. WOW! She's my idol. Love her voice.

Wait a minute... I think this topic is getting a lil far from where I should be going. hahaha.

Oh well I think that's fine.

So there you go I got the idea of Supasstah from my audition in the MTV SUPASTAH. Now you're asking why with a double "S"? haha. Well that's because I've been endowed with a J. Lo like ass. hahaha. Pretty much my Ass-et. ROFL.

Oh by the way, Sitti was pretty much discovered there and I think she was the big winner of MTV SUPASTAH. During the audition she was actually the first one before me and I was privileged to have lil chats with her. She was really nice, very pretty, and matalino. Imagine? She brought her study materials pa sa audition and was reading and putting highlights. She knows her priorities. Good for her!

This happened 2 - 3 years ago I think. College days.

Oh my gosh. This Introduction is so long already. hahaha. My my my things that boredom can do. So I guess that's it for now. With all the things that I have written I did state the reason why it's Supasstah right? lol.

So if you want to read more of my rant, raves, scuttlebutts, whatnots, and lots of random thoughts. Visit here again. Toodaloo! *mwah*